Jumping Forward

My Mom and I went to Kansas City to see a MS specialist.  Sure enough, she listened to my symptoms, looked over my records, and did a few of her own "tests".  Some of the tests she did, made me realized that my body was a little more "off" than I had realized.  All in all, it was what I suspected.  In the end, I walked out with an RX and a diagnosis of MS.  It is scary and sad, but I have hope.  I look at my Mom and I KNOW I can do this and do it with a smile...well, until the nurse gets here tomorrow!!

So, the doctor prescribed me Copaxone.  It is supposed to stop/slow/revers the myelin around my nerves from deteriorating....which is a good thing, right??  Until I was informed that Copaxone is administered through a daily injection that I would have to give myself.  I HATE needles, I tolerate them when someone else is setting up the IV or shooting me up with much needed medications.  But man, oh man, I can NOT imagine doing it myself!!

Seriously, as a child, I went over and above to try and eliminate the ability for a medical professional to touch me with those nasty little suckers!!  I remember one time when I was going into kindergarten, my Mom took me to the doctor for my booster shots.  Well, the doctor was talking to me...hiding the needle, trying to keep eye contact...but the second I felt that little prick, I reached down and ripped that stinking needle out of my butt!! The doctor was in shock, thank goodness that I didn't pull wrong and break it off!!

As I got older, I just got stronger....In Junior High, I had TONS of strep throat.  I had it so often, they did not even bother with the oral meds, instead it was an immediate shot.  It would take 3 nurses (one on each leg and one holding my arm), the doctor (to actually administer the shot), and my step-dad (holding my back down) in order to keep me still enough for them to inject me!!!  It took getting pregnant, for me to suck it up and take it like a "woman"!!!

Anyways, the nurse comes tomorrow to teach me how to give myself an injection properly and I am TERRIFIED, wish me luck...hopefully, this self-injecting pen thing they gave me works magic!!!